when the field is wide open, i'll pick the horse who's go the biggets heart.

i keep coming to these stop signs
these reminders of where im going
not in the area that your thinking
the area that i constantly have to convince myself doesnt exist
another clue...another opportunity for you to tell the truth leaves you adding more lies to your bag.
Im in an odd place with it
it hurts, and leaves me with an empty feeling in the chest and throat.
Head is like gunfire with thoughts.
I dont know if you settled
if you got sidetracked from what you really were eyeing down

you scare me now
i try to play the songs loud enough to where i can think of anything else
but the volume doesnt really go that high
my sence and demeanor of me being "ok" now is just me cracking under the pressure...giving in, my struggle against this current is wearing me down
so i let go..
im in a straight jacket, and i feel stupid
all this shit is jsut a cover up
i really do not know who you are
And i guess right now i dont want to anymore

i wanna be free
i wanna feel something
i wanna be indulged in a overwhelming moment
not the ones i've been getting with you
and i cant really understand how you'd be suprised with this.
I cant get through this song fully
i keep replaying it ...because when it starts, i just close my eyes and feel the first sence of liberation i've felt in a while without reality standing right behind it dwindling the flame
its just not what it might have been befor
it hurts to even get close
cause its all just a sham
its a distraction
its all hidden under the rug
and your dancing around trying to keep the focus off of it
my happiness is my denial from the truth.

it'd be a fresh breath to meet someone genuine
someone who is nothing but what is upfront
no hidden agendas
no white lies
what you see is what you get
it just seems impossible
trying to find shelter in an empty field

to run away, and live the life that we've been wanting to come across for so long
be those few that didnt crack under the pressure surrounding us
be those that didnt give in to the degrading values, and the bogus terms like loyality and honesty that have lost their meaning these days
theres a whole book of things i dont know about you
all i wanted to kow was the honest truth
now i cant even bring myself to ask who you are anymore
your not really the black in the crowd of white...you blend in with them all now.
theres thigns you'll never tell me, theres things that will go on that you'll hide, delete or leave out
everything was switched up...and faces turned
your ways just scare me now.
i smile now, cause i know theres nothing i can do about it, no matter what the water is gonna pour over the edge, so celebrate what you have now til the next tidal wave comes...thats the fuel for my laughs now adays....loss of hope with this, makes me laugh

this turned me into what i am now.

but for some reason, i feel more than ever..that things will work out in general with everything. some things must go though...some things must go, and its obvious where you'll end up, with the reason why i was too scared to leave it in the first place..and still.
im just swimming trying to find the surface to get a breath
until then *** remain just imaginary