ya know we can go at a quarter to three your on

Peacful day today, well..if i block out one or two things, which by now im pretty good at doin so.

but i keep thinking lately how i've changed in the last few years as a person, who i am and what i do....of course everyone adjusts to things that are happening in their lives and such but, i cant help but feel like im not really in a better place than i was not so long ago. only in certain specifics of my life though, other places and superficial things im content with...but stuff inside, im confused with.

i do less of what i enjoy, for reasons ...unclear to me, and to the point where i dont even enjoy it no more..maybe it just got old?..dur.
i've become less confident or sure of myself
and i guess the thing thats most noticeable for me personally is i've become less active which im trying to work on...i hate this feeling of poor health

im no crazy athlete, but i use to be driven to at least stay active a lot, i've even lost the want to do it...no motivation for it...i gotta find it in my new settings somehow.

I've been on a queen kick lately...laying in bed one night i forgot i had them on my IPOD and started listening to their greatis hits album...i mean theres parts of queens music i cant get into or last through a whole song but at least their greatist hits album...obviously since its their greatist hits...it got me listening to that album a lot lately and learning their shit on guitar.

You cant deny this guy had talent, the band made some spectacular music, in respect of just music itself...you gotta at least tip your hats to the creative aspect of it.



you gotta at least respect the people with true talent, even if its not in your ballpark or genre.....stuff thats inspiring...this guy, no exception.



yikes, its crazy how we can adjust to things. How we can be at ease when we know that dredful things might be lurking around the bend...i guess thats life at times, from a certain perspective...find your moments within themselves, disregarding anything not concerning that specific moment in time, share a kiss, a hug..and so on, just admire that and only that. basically...live in the moment of "now"

those are times no one or anything can steal from you.

its called, i wanna rock your body...

I cant really look at this place the same with all the worries that come along with it right now.

cant get the thought outta my head that this could be over so soon, too soon

ha, sometimes stuff in your life piles up sooo high, one little obsticle becomes a bigger one and so forth and its like one set after another set of waves just trying to demolish your sandcastle

hah to the point where, its just funny..hah its like ok, come awn...what else you got?

anyway! theres my debbie downer section.

Got to see "the crazies'' haha, we laughed the whole way through, just pokin fun at the movie and little things the people did in there ha,
once we were at disneyland...jade leaned over and told me "i think its ....retard day"
haha i was like what do you mean by that? ha she said she's noticed just a bunch of "special" looking people everywhere..way more than usual, haha
and when we were watching the lincoln memorial movie thing, at the part where its suppose to be heartfelt and sending a strong message where you see the people
who died on the battle fields during the civil war ha these people were just cracking up behind us haha,
i mean ..it got almost too weird if you can imagine, hah uncomfortable hah, we figured they might have been "special" BUT anyway...my point in telling that story is because thats how i felt other people thought about us in the "crazies" movie hah cause we were just non-stop laughing our asses off about what was going on in that movie, with all fear/horror and the sadness and killin and sympathy your suppose to be feelin for these people going through that stuff in the movie haa.

Saw alice in wonderland too, eh i think i was expecting way to much. Its worth a shot at seein but i wish they kinda would have stuck to the whole wonderland aspect of it...you never really got much of it, you just saw some of the characters and how everything was burnt and ruined and how they were trying to win it back.

kane snuck us in the night before it was officially released and aftr the theaters closed, so it was cool to be one of the few to see it before everyone else, it was just like 7 people watchin alice in wonderland in 3d at 1 in the morning ha. good moment.

bagels and creamcheese are what my tastebuds are screaming for a lot lately.

i really wanna know if her and i would be friends, if our personalities would mingle well...that'd be awesome-o 2000